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"I’m now at the point where I have to talk myself every morning into wanting to stay."

~ My current thoughts on stagnancy

I’m learning

I’m back on track.  I’m okay with being by myself again.  I’m learning how to be whole again!  



Do not take friends for granted.  Do not. 

I’m confusing loneliness for isolation, and it hurts.

I wonder if I can ever shine as brightly as I did before.  I wonder if I can love as strongly as I could before.  I know ebbs and flows are natural, but I worry that I cannot get most of what I’ve lost back.

I don’t like who I am, I’m not comfortable with who I am, how can I get back to being at peace with who I am?  

I found the song I would walk down the aisle to.  Or maybe it’s a first dance hymn?  Nonetheless, it is so breathtakingly beautiful.

Don’t let me show cruelty

Though I may make mistakes
Don’t let me show ugliness
Though I know I can hate
And don’t let me show evil
Though it might be all I take

Show me love.

Don’t let me think weakly
Though I know that I can break
Keep me away from apathy
While I am still awake
And don’t let me think too long
Of the one I’m bound to face

Show me love.

Cities and Shows

Treasure Island early bird tickets go on sale in about an hour.  Initially, I thought of buying tickets, but I decided against it because I would only want to see the New Pornographers.  I went on their website and I found this:

Which led me to this:

WHICH IS DO-ABLE, right?!  Someone please go to Portland with me, please.